Absolute Future

So here's the 39573289572357022394th post today. I've been playing Halo pretty much the whole day, except for the miserable "band practice." I think I'm gonna try my hardest to AVOID Ana and make another legit attempt at getting over it, because it's over, and that's not going to change. I also have no idea why I'm blogging this instead of locking it up in my head and telling nobody save Laurel.

I also almost ruined Britney and Allie today, because I almost told Britney something that would've surely broken them up. For the moment, I wanted her to go through what I went through, to actually take the consequences of what she does. Or at least someone, so they'd understand what just happened to me. It's hard seeing 7 months go to complete waste because of one little stupid decision and your inability to explain what you were exactly thinking. Yeah, it fucking sucks.

I just won a game of Halo, and I didn't even notice. Sweet.

Oh god, today sucked. Nothing interesting happened, and I got to watch Ben mack Ana. I think they both noticed I was raging. And if they didn't, they should. I think everybody there knew what was going on. Maybe if Laurel was there it would've been less awkward. And less painful, because I wouldn't be thinking about Ana at all, I would've been distracted. She hates me anyways, I have no idea why I'm even thinking about her anymore.

Oh well.

Cody, you should come blaze with me and Cameron sometime, it'd be legit. And depending on the night we go, we might have a car to go places in.

I hope Laurel brings me back something cool. Since I'm obviously never going to go with Ana like she said.

I need to get my mind off fucking Ana. Going back to Halo now.